Finally got to see my BF...

Today one of my closet friends, the godmother of lucy came over today. Seems like lately we just don't have time for eachother. Her daughter is 8 months old, and we have only seen her a handful of times. Sad. But they got to come see us today and since I have been really learning a lot about photography lately, I decided to try and get out there and take some pics of them. And I really think some of them turned out good. I just need to figure out about the light still. My brain doesn't hold a lot of information. lol.

When did I become so boring......

School started this week. Well actually it started last week, bt this was the full first week. It's strange not having lucy or derek around here. It's so quiet, and I really have nothing to do. I went down to the railroad the other day and took some pics, but until I go to work I really only clean or sit on my computer and do work/play on facebook. My God, Im only 28 years old, when did my life become so stinkin boring??!! Don't get me wrong, I like the peace and quiet, and I like the all around calm that comes with being alone, but I often find myself so bored. I don't really watch that much tv, so sitting on the couch all day is out of the question. I can't go shopping all day, tho I would love to. Since our vacation, I really have been getting into photography a lot. I spent a lot of time in the hospital, and thought a lot about who I wanted to be, and though it's always been my passion I never actually stepped up and did anything about it, but now I am. I found that Im pretty good for a new comer, though I have a lot to learn, which Im learning from my dad.
So this week, I have really been working on trying to get a doctor in little rock to continue my mrsa sepsis. I never realized how hard it would be to accomplish this. My doctor, I don't know if she is just a serious bitch, or if she is just really stupid, but she has made this so difficult. I feel like maybe  she has no clue about this disease. I have had to call them multiple times a day to please get a referrel in. I have had northing short of a screaming match at least twice this week with the nurse. Basically she told me she would do it when she had time. She asked me not only to find a doctor myself, but also send them my medical records, and my insurance card, and then she would just fax them the referrel paper. I told her that this was no problem and within an hour had it all done, but I still feel like wasn't this supposed to be done by her?? So now 'my' part is done, and of course for the last three days I have been waiting for them to fax a referrel paper....I mean honestly how long does it take to fax a paper? I gave her the fax number, I faxed all the other papers in, I even found the doctor. So what the hell is the problem?? Okay Im done bitching now.

I feel like I might be going crazy....

Ugh..this is so rediuculous. I can't believe how in one state the doctors are treating me like I need to keep on top of this, I need to make sure that I get help right away, this could get out of control, you could end up back in the hospital...blah blah blah...and then out here, no one wants to help me. I hate my physician. If anyone knows my doctor, or even thinks about my doctor, I would definantely advice you to think else where. My Primary is the worst doctor that I could possibly have. They basically told me that they didn't have time to find me a doctor. I try to tell them that I am dealing with bad headaches daily, that my face hurts, that im having more and more trouble breathing. They don't seem to really care. Basically it looks as tho I might have to go to little rock and sit in the ER and wait to see someone...how am I supposed to do that? Derek just started school, lucy did too, who would watch lucy? And what about work? Im already about a month without a paycheck. It seems like everything is falling down around me. I feel like my spirit is just broken. If no one else cares, and no one else sees how serious this is, then why should I care? Why shouldn't I just lay down and give up. Get bad enough to where I have to be in the hospital again. Then maybe someone will help me. No wonder so many people in arkansas dies of mrsa sepsis...because they are allowed to die.