I feel like I might be going crazy....

Ugh..this is so rediuculous. I can't believe how in one state the doctors are treating me like I need to keep on top of this, I need to make sure that I get help right away, this could get out of control, you could end up back in the hospital...blah blah blah...and then out here, no one wants to help me. I hate my physician. If anyone knows my doctor, or even thinks about my doctor, I would definantely advice you to think else where. My Primary is the worst doctor that I could possibly have. They basically told me that they didn't have time to find me a doctor. I try to tell them that I am dealing with bad headaches daily, that my face hurts, that im having more and more trouble breathing. They don't seem to really care. Basically it looks as tho I might have to go to little rock and sit in the ER and wait to see someone...how am I supposed to do that? Derek just started school, lucy did too, who would watch lucy? And what about work? Im already about a month without a paycheck. It seems like everything is falling down around me. I feel like my spirit is just broken. If no one else cares, and no one else sees how serious this is, then why should I care? Why shouldn't I just lay down and give up. Get bad enough to where I have to be in the hospital again. Then maybe someone will help me. No wonder so many people in arkansas dies of mrsa sepsis...because they are allowed to die.